Start a new life

Trust broken, Faith died
Tear in eyes my heart cried
A web of lies, no transparency
Hidden behind mask of decency
A lover with unsure feeling
His lies leaves my heart bleeding
When he smiles hatred ignites
As if in him devil resides
His cunning self now revealed
Sorrow and regret, I concealed

Again and again he lied
Unlimited times he apologized
To stay loyal he promised
Every time my heart believed
Seasons changed he did not
Separation is best I thought
Fight started within, my heart won
I made a decision that was wrong
Every day hoping him to be true
I continued my life without clue

Now, broken & confused I stand
Everything is over, nothing to mend
His warm smile, devil's snare
His loving eyes, devil's stare
Mind takes control, my heart cries
No love is left , but sad smiles
Said farewell, he stood still
My departure was not his will
I have to forgive and forget
Start a new life, trust my fate

Creation of my mind

walking through the woods
surrounded by beauty of nature
rays of sun illuminating the forest
tangle of  branches creating artifacts

all of a sudden
everything engulfed in darkness
heard hiss and howl
heard crackling of twigs and dry leaves

composure repossessed
as visibility regained
but mist formed a curtain
couldn't see far beyond

as I wandered
only white mist I could see
suddenly felt, dense mist closing in on me
so close that I couldn't breathe.

but then scene changed
I was in the middle of ocean
struggling with violent waves
the sky painted greyish black

soon, a wave towered over me
threatening to kill me in seconds
assured death stood before me
next second I was underneath water

astound  to see a beautiful lake
surrounded by hills
I was in heaven ,I thought
 realty struck like lightning

admiring the beauty of this place
I dont know when I fell asleep
events that occurred one afer another
everything ,creation of my mind

He was there for me

When I was going through a rough phase
When there was no one to embrace
Crying for my loneliness in my solitude
 Not in a state to show  fortitude
........He was there for me.

Though I was the one who betrayed
The love he gave me I slayed
 My words cut his  heart into slices
Even  when I was stuck in crisis
 ........He was there for me.

When I was  struggling with my life
 When there was no love but strife
Only my shadow disturbed my solitariness
surrounded by nothing but hopelessness
............He was there for me

Though I was the one who broke his heart
My extreme hatred tore him apart
I was the reason  why  he cried
Even  when I felt I almost  died
......He was there for me

When I was finding way through this maze
When my mind  was in a  haze
Not a single soul was ready to assist
Anguish I felt was not easy to resist
.......He was there for me

Though I was the one who left him alone
My demeanor made him so lone
 Void that was created hurt his existence
Even when I never  wanted his presence
............He was there for me

Nightmare

Heard a bang on my window pane,
Peeped out, found nothing but rain.
Felt cool breeze brushed against my skin,
Soon, my head started to spin.
Seemed strange yet scary,
Hallucinating  as I was weary. .

Lights went off ,darkness prevailed,
Heart started racing,'run' my mind declared.
Heard footsteps approaching me,

Stood frozen, I wanted to flee.

Praying hard for Angels to descend,
Everything is fine, I tried to pretend.

Darkness seemed better than illumination,
Truth was horrible, beyond my imagination.
Scream escaped my lips ,I felt cold,
The spirit looked deadly and bold.

Just a step away  stood my death,

Started praying  until my last breath.

I Cant Forget You

  I can forget everything 

 I can forget myself   

       .... I cannot forget your touch 

 Even when you put your hands on my throat

Even when last few breaths are left

   ........I swear I can't forget u

   

 I can forget all my  memories 

I can forget all my life  

   ....But I can't forget your name  

Even when day turns night

Even when ocean dries 

    ........ I swear I can't forget u

 I can forget all the lovely seasons 

 I can forget all the beautiful colors 

    ....But I can't forget ur breath

Even when there is no hope 

 Even when there is nothing but emptiness 

     ........I swear I can't forget u

I can forget all my loved ones 

I can forget all the love I got from them

   ....But I can't forget ur face

Even when only silence can be heard

Even when no life survives on this earth  

  ........  I swear I can't forget u

Looking for answers..

trying hard to breathe
air around me ,so thin

there's a pain ,in my heart
but alone,I am fighting it hard..

looking up at the sky
there are dark clouds ,no silver line
just a ray of sunshine,I wanna see
It will raise hope, inside me..

finding it tough to swim
 amidst high waves,there's no dry land
praying for help,answers I'll find
boat of peace,'ll bring rest to my mind..

searching way through dense forest
thousands of path,but not the right one
feels like lost forever,still there' s desire
inside my heart ,it's burning like fire..

trying desperately to live
no matter what happens, i will
dreams are  still alive, to achieve
life will be ,what I believe..

Love and Life

miles and miles  away from you,
finding  hard to find  peace..
trying hard not to remember you,
but memories drift in like breeze..

not a single reason I have,
to blame you for this pain..
with a broken heart that I have,
my eyes are about to rain..

things are not on right track,
still your face dwells in my eyes..
fighting everything on this sorry track,
looking for an answer with every sunrise..

life is not a beautiful fairy land,
where magic can appear every time..
land of hopes maybe a dreamland,
sometimes as soothing as sound of chime..

love and life ,a balance I seek,
happiness will shower like shooting stars..
being with you ,a desire i seek
my life will blossom like spring flowers...

Life is an examination

life is an examination

from birth till death
at every phase of  life....

every step we take
being supervised..
every breath we inhale
being assessed..
success and failure
go hand in hand..
happiness and sadness
two sides of coin..
fighting every second
for survival..
struggling every day
for success..
reaching the top
must it is..
crossing the limits
efforts it needs..

life is an examination

crying hard, cursing self
failure brings with it..
proud face, big smile
success presents it..
with every win
many friends you get..
every loss gets
eyes filled with disgust ..
when you reach the top
they pull you down..
Stress like a whirlpool
drags you inside it..
depressed desperate
condition of do or die..
waiting for a silver lining
in the dark cloudy sky..

life is an examination

Earth's cry

Thunder bolt thunder clap, no dark cloud to see. .
Not from starry heaven,but from fiery hell. .
Not the act of righteous nature,but game of cunning man. .
Duel fight war battle, destruction is the only way. .
Innocence and innocent being killed, death's cold hand outstretched. .
A drop of elixir not enough, a slight touch , lay dead. .
Peace is jst a death away, for individual it is not for all. .
Put an end to death, sow the seeds of Life..
Quench my thirst with blood, I don't wish that . .
Oh people of my land , I command u . .
Put your egos on pyre ,Then set it to fire . .
Let the dove fly in the sky ,Let message of love travel by. .

Big blast loud roar , not of a volcano . .
Not from those blazing peaks , but where this devil lives . .
Not by curse of god ,but by the grace of man . .
Cries screams fear blood ,gruesome madness running in veins . .
Guilt is not judged , cruelly death is sentenced . .
Miserable stands poor life , rude death comes and slays. .
Stop this act of death , plant a new sapling of life. .
Satisfy my hunger with deads , I dont dream of that..
Oh people of my land , I command u . .
Put your egos on pyre ,Then set it to fire . .
Let the dove fly in the sky ,Let message of love travel by. .

Immortality

Something is hidden deep inside d profoundness of my heart..
I'l risk my life , never let anyone know who u are..
The secret so covert still well kept in my mortal heart ..
Aura around u is so mysterious ,u cnt disguise what u are.......

One dark night, when I was going back home.. 
I felt a sudden chill run down my spine..
Those eyes I loved so much ,I couldnt recognize..
That day your eyes were the color of wine..

U were not the one I knew I loved..
The way u behaved was so strange..
Suddenly u luked like a bad evil guy..
Whatever was the reason I felt the change..

U came forward I took a step back..
I felt no beat when placed my palm on ur heart..
With pain n joy accepted the truth of eternity..
One day I'll die with d secret buried in my mortal heart..

Separation

love is blind I know
this world told me a thousand times
but still love is love
like the fresh morning breeze
I can always feel you around me 
though you are so far
gone with those wild winds
leaving me shattered like those autumn leaves
still waiting for the spring
the time we were happy
together enjoying the blossom of colorful flowers
love was everywhere to feel
light of happiness soon eclipsed  
darkness of death came  and covered everything
left behind were my tears
love is blind I realize
desperately waiting for someone who left forever
love is living unreal reality